Hey Strawberry, Why don’t you at least stay on SR (don’t close your account) and that’s one stab against your AV. I closed my acct a few years back, probably for different reasons. But here I am again. And feeling really good about a sober life.
You will get there. Sobriety has to be more important to you than the Drink. Are you reading any books on addiction? There’s some great stuff out there and they are even listed up top in the forum. I’m cheering you on here. We all know the pull of alcohol, but it always bites and stings ya in the end.