In sobriety I've long been interested in examining those ideas which exist at a point where science and spirituality meet. I think this was best expressed by Einstein who remarked that he wanted to understand Gods thoughts.
One of the better things I've found in this regard is this talk buy a former student of Steven Hawking,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-d4ugppcRUE&t=173s (who, I am now quite sure, has a different perspective on things).