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Old 04-05-2018, 11:42 AM
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Berrybean
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Oh dear. Your post triggered some memories for me. That waking up just after bedtime and thinking it MUST be time to get up. And the torture of time passing SOOOOOO slowly. Gah!

It doesn't stay this mind-shriekingly slow though. Time will go back to normal when you aren't clawing your way through every sober moment.

I agree about getting out of the house. AA meetings don't necessarily have to be social events until you're ready for them to be so. The actual meeting time is mostly listening. It's quite acceptable to close your eyes or look at the floor if even eye contact is difficult. It can end up being the place that feels safest, and where we feel understood, and where time moves at it's most 'normal' speed, and we can also end up getting a bunch of sober aquaintences to talk to, learn from and who can suggest things that can help us with whatever we're struggling with that day. It also means there's a safe place to go to get away from your own head and have a change of air and scenery. Isolating isn't a good idea.

Do you have kindle at all? Audio books might be worth considering as you can lay in bed and listen to them if you wake in the night and can't sleep. Eventually you'll drift off again that way.

Keep going. It doesn't stay this nasty.

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