Originally Posted by
Cayde6 
I've been searching around the forum, especially between 6-9pm, which is when the urge for me to drink is peaked, and I see all these people that are making it 30+ days, and all I could think is "There's no F'ing way".
Last night I was playing Video Games with some old friends, and in between each round hearing "One sec, grabbing a beer" made me want to throw my controller at the screen.
Sleeping still sucks, If I can make it two hours without snapping awake at the smallest of sounds that's a gift. I woke up thinking it was close to 5am and I should start getting ready only to find out it was only 1130pm.
On a positive note my stupid app is telling me I saved 30 bucks by not drinking, so maybe Ill treat myself to lunch today.
If anyone talks to me at work I'm kicking them in the shin.
Rant Over, thanks.
Rant away! It's healthy. You need a place to vent that frustration - frustration which is valid.
Do treat yourself. Its important to reinforce and reward your new habit of not drinking. You can use those small wins to consolidate and build on. In fact, if you think you can make small wins happen do so.
That said, this early, you might consider being careful putting yourself in environments that you may or may not have the willpower developed to deal with. Give yourself a break on that if you need to. It's the very definition of making your sobriety a priority over other things. If people in your life don't get that, kick them in the shin.
(Just kidding of course, but I think you get my point.)
Best and keep going.
B