I totally relate ChowChow. But imagine this. When you did drink upon arriving home, the end of the night came rushing at you. Now you have all this time! I have this hour to play on SR, then I have the next hour to do something else.
We have taken control of our time. And our money. And our skin color...and so much more.
I worry about being a dud too, but that's just the way it is.
Take care.