Great on 66 abstinent days! Your comment about your attitude towards drinking, not drinking, etc. seem slightly insane, right? Most "normal" folks don't think like we did/do. So as the second step of AA says that we need to be "restored" to sanity, indicating that as far as alcohol is concerned we have become strangely insane. Point being, that what you are going thru is to be expected, we've all had that mental obsession, even as we don't consume alcohol. The next thing is to work on being restored to sanity. I used the program of the 12-steps along with support from a group and a sponsor, and I was restored to sanity. My wish is for you to move forward with recovery, as in order to stay abstinent we need to grow in recovery. A bright future is there, if we would only work the recovery program in earnest. Osmosis doesn't work for us alcoholics, but work will work.
Best always,
Reggie