Great replies all. Thank you.
So, today was better. I wrote that post at the end of spending 4 days alone. I took a couple days off from the office. I suspect the effects isolation had built up plenty.
Immediately felt better this morning when I got busy again.
I also recognized today that much of what I posted was likely a form of that million little forms of self-centeredness. Self pity for sure. Had to remind myself again today of the many many things in my life I can be grateful for.
Had a great drive this morning - felt very inspired on some things. Will keep them to myself for now as I just work on doing a few basics routinely again. Would rather trust what I do than what I say at the moment.
B