Don't like going home
Every day after work I dread going home. When I got home I drank. Not I get home and while I am headed home I get this horrible anxiety.
I am not anxious about drinking. I am not going to do that. I get a fear of death and loneliness. Worry about my daughter, my health, etc.
I have a therapist now and I am going to AA. I have a sponsor now and I am working the steps. I am starting to think I am not a normal person psychologically.
Has anyone had this experience? My husband last night (the one who called me a dud) said I am crabby since I stopped drinking but also said that I should feel good about myself for stopping.