I just re-read your post, Buckeley-
One sentence jumped out at me this time "...because I am so self aware." I thought I was when I was drinking, and realized quickly (in the first 90 days) how UN self aware I had been - I'd been selfish and certainly dealt with the face to the world/what's really inside dichotomy many feel. My road to true self-awareness - here at 25 mo and change- has really (REALLY) gone deep and wide to actually "get it" and...get myself.