Welcome SurvivorK. I am only 12 weeks sober but couldn't have done it without this wonderful site. Everyone here is helpful and also honest. I see my recovery from both sides now. The benefit for me, which I am most definitely experiencing , but also from the friends and family page how my drinking was affecting the others around me. You can get back to the place you were at. Just baton down the hatch and start to mark the days off again. Soon you will feel that sparkle come back to you and this 15 months will have just been a little detour on your wonderful road to sunshine and happiness. Wishing you all the best. Xx