Originally Posted by
Sunflowerlife 
No school today. My friend came over with her 2 boys but these visits are becoming more tiresome each week and when she leaves I feel like I am going to break. I actually did- I had a screaming nervous breakdown full of tears and rage and then I sent both boys to their rooms.
I can't do this anymore. I have cabin fever, I am a burnt out, resentful mom because I don't want this to be my job. I don't enjoy this one bit. I wasn't meant for this- I'm not capable. All I want is to be left alone and instead I am forced to take care of 2 little boys that need everything from me, every minute of the day. I feel like I am going to break apart into a million pieces...
Oh Sunflower you're very brave to admit to us how you're feeling. I've been EXACTLY where you are honey. Small children are tough little creatures! It's a thankless job and very isolating too unless you are the get-up-and-go professional socialising type.
Even though mine are now almost 16 and 11 they still take take take as I suspect they're supposed to. I don't think I ever considered what my parents did for me until I had children of my own.
This phase will pass sweetheart. I remember you were thinking about getting a job? If somehow you can arrange childcare I feel sure it would help you.
Lots of love to you SFL from a fellow mum xxxxx