I keep thinking I can only have fun by drinking. It helps me relax in public, but then after the few hours at night I have to rehash what happened and sit back and say the next day why did you do this..... I even know when I start its not a good thing but still do it. I think my plan for myself has to be to check in here more often to remind me of what the choice is. Steve time is my issue also. With more time I get to feel comfortable and need to not be comfortable.