Originally Posted by
golfinmidwest 
Last night I "tested" to see if I could drink and live a normal life. Nothing bad happened but I did get very drunk and made a idiot of myself. I keep thinking I can drink and live normally but I know I can't.
Testing the waters...that's been your downfall. This, from your previous post to SR:
Originally Posted by
golfinmidwest I have tried to quit many times in the past 2 and half years. I can go months without drinking, but I always end up "seeing if I can manage my drinking" and I can't.
Many alcoholic pursue "normal" drinking to their deaths. Don't be one of them. Take drinking off the table. For good. Because nothing good will come from it.