Welcome back Golf.
I probably don't need to do this for you, but I went back and looked at your previous threads. Almost a decade ago you were here, knowing you had a problem with alcohol. Yet your AV/beast has you out drinking even last night!
Please know I am NOT judging. I too have come and gone from this site, and sobriety, for years now. You can see I joined in 2013.
However, I am determined to stay the course this time.
What about you?