Originally Posted by
Forward12 
You have a family, a partner sick of your alcoholism. I think you have every reason in the world to get sober. Do you want to be the "drunk mom" mentally destroying your children from your selfishness? Your husband possibly filing for divorce and a nasty legal battle to insure?
Get your act together. You literally have many loved ones depending on it
I have an instant family, my partners 2 oldest boys moved in full time 7 days every week a couple of years ago.. I need to stop drinking because it is keeping me somewhere I don't think I wanna be. My partner is happy for me to drink and encourages it, this is the biggest thing I have in my way. He doesn't drink the same as I do, he will drink more but less often which is what he thinks i should do, however will all know that doesn't work..
The biggest loved one depending on me is ME... I was in an abusive relationship 20 years ago and smoking pot, I realised as long as I smoked and escaped from reality I would never get out, so I stopped and eventually left..
I need to stop so I can figure out what is best for me....