jon, thankyou so much for responding. I think detox would be great, but one catch, hubby told me if i use one more time he is out of here and we are not doing well at all. He says i dont want to do anything, i dont want to socialize, his friends tell him that he lies and that he cant be married because they have never met me..is he living uder a rock? doesnt he see all these behaviors are signs of addiction? <geez> i have to figure out how i will approach him with all this because im at my whits end..its weird, i wouldnt use at all but i have to because it makes me feel just NORMAL. Will i ever feel normal and happy again with out drugs? When the brain is exposed to a euphoria that is not worldly,,nothing makes us happy...so i know it takes time to rebuild our own natural endorphins again via drug free. but i want to be better yesterday. I take the damn things to feel happy, when im sad, when im scared, when idont want to cry, etc,,,,I HATE ADDICTION, i would rather loose a leg.
