I had many "I need/want to quit" attempts and would fail,stay away from here and continue drinking. Sometimes drunk lurking around the site. Once I got serious(not that you're not) about quitting, I'd do what you just did and post here about my "drank again" shenanigans. That's when I started to see my drinking thoughts/patterns and it helped me build/add to my plan(s). I still had many day ones and would go back to the drawing board of 'why' and what should I have done differently.