Nothing is going well. I keep picking up a bottle of wine every now and then. Took out another loan and then wasted it on cigarettes. I'm not talking to my ex at all now. I really believe I have to try a lot harder. I can manage the smoking because I can chew gum but there's no alcohol replacement. I haven't been to a meeting for over a week because for 3 days I could barely get out of bed. Inpatient is not an option due to all my loans. I'm going to look at other options as well as AA as like a supplement to it. Sorry to sound so depressed but this is my only outlet.