Welcome to SR, Kevin.
I wish I could go back to 27 & question my drinking habits. It would have saved me so much grief & misery. I kept going, trying to control it, and almost lost my life. When I came to SR I felt relieved to be able to discuss my feelings with people who had been through the same things. I'm glad you recognize the warning signs of alcoholic drinking. Everyone here understands & will be glad to help.