Tired,
Ime...when I was younger quitting was easier, but stayin quit was harder.
The brain damage hadn't set in so deep so the crave won after 8 months clean.
I had no mental reason to stay quit. So I relapsed for 20 more years.
I was a binger not a daily drinker. I hated building up a tolerance.
Quitting got harder and harder. The hellish hole was deeper and deeper.
I am still in the hole. I will never get out.
I, like everyone here, is an addict for life.
Once a pickle, never a cucumber.
I, like everyone here, am in a good place though, compared to active drinkers. I have awareness and conviction to not relapse.
I, leh, know relapse will lead to regret. Active addicts have the physical addiction plus the regret. They are still on the highway to hell.
I, leh, will not continue to poison my body and mind.
Thanks.