Kiki, thank you for the brave, raw and honest post. I find my shares, in a way are me 'talking' to me. I am not going into the process of your event. When I was woken from an induced coma and was told what had happened to me- I gave in (mostly...I DID accept the powerless over booze bit, but had to endure more sadly b4 it really sunk in) - I needed help. You have done good. There may be ripple effects..but with the stopping drinking, so there no more future damage is done. Keep posting. I find using a journal a good strategy, plus counseling and meetings and ..etc.
Empathy and prayers to you.