Jillian
I am so sorry you are going through this.
Please, take the help of the authorities before things escalate.
I had an ex who did very similar, although as far as I know he wasn't on drugs. He accused me of cheating (in very vulgar ways) and then would lock me in the smoking closet for hours with him while he cried and begged for me not to leave him. While our young children ran around the house unattended (1 yr old and 3 yr old). When I did get out, and would sleep, he repeatedly took advantage of me (nice way to put it, I can't stand saying it the other way) in my sleep.
I drank to cope too. When I could. It didn't fix anything.
Eventually he left but like I said, he wasn't out of his head on drugs. But it took MONTHS of this torture before he left.
Please take care of yourself and the kids. Drugs added into an abusive mix already just seems so much more dangerous to me. For your safety and sanity, don't let this drag on.
You're not alone, we are here for you.
