I've only been sober for few days, but I know EXACTLY what you mean about the constant discomfort of always feeling like something's off or missing, but not knowing what. Had that my whole life, eventually even when I was drunk. Just wanted to say reading that you're still on top of your drinking after more than a month... I think.. And knowing you've done it with that same nagging need to flip out and do something extreme and self destructive...has really given me hope I can do the same. Keep at it, you can do it
Also, as a side note, I've always found sprinting down the road for a minute..you know like Phoebe's mad running in Friends...has always really helped me shut that feeling up for a while. And I hate running!