Lost my wallet this evening and it was a fright.........and although I lost my temper I didn't think hit the booze..........found it on the car dashboard in the end...crisis averted........everyone is really nice though I have ventured onto other peoples posts now and it does sound rather harrowing. I think damaged people drink a lot and the self destructive element of the process doesn't matter because you think that you don't matter.........I matter to my little boy and that's a good enough reason to try and stay alive and give him a good start in life and good memories of his Dad.......not bad ones............now just after 9pm in the UK......bring on day 6 of sobriety..........thanks everyone here