Al,
Love your honesty. I never made it 2 months in the end. I would always cave around 9 days to a month.
For me, at 90 days clean I was losing my mind and i had serious craves for well up to a year.
I came to sr and learned it can take years to normalize. Years. The brain has to rewire.
Relapse looms the whole time. I am craving a bit right now. But, I am off to the gym and shopping.
I had to make a lifestyle changes and always remember why I quit.
I am educated all about booze. I have learned that it is a highly addictive neuro toxin that insideously damages our brain and body.
I was dieing a slow, ugly, pathetic death. I am not going out like that.
I work on my recovery, as required, daily.
Thanks.