Just sharing my experience here, for whatever that's worth. I tried controlling/moderating my nightly drinking. I would promise myself every single morning that Tonight I would only drink 1 bottle of wine. But , by 3:00pm I would get very anxious about having only 1 bottle of wine at home. I'd given in to my Addiction and buy more.
I could not fight my desire for alcohol. I could not find whatever "muscle" you guys are referring to, I could not read enough of anything to stop that desire to buy more and drink. No amount of crying from my son. There was nothing in this world that I could tap into to make me stop drinking myself into a blackout every night of the week.
Well, I'm on a plane and no time to finish my post.
Bobbi