I just haven't been able to convince myself that I didn't cause her problem.
Wow, just imagine if you actually did have that superpower – to give someone the disease of alcoholism and make them drink to access, make them obsess about drinking, convince them that the only copping skill they can use is a drink. Now if you did have that kind of a superpower- to give another human being the disease of alcoholism wouldn’t there be a whole trail of alcoholics in your dust, those who’ve wronged you, looked at you funny or gave you attitude wouldn’t they also be suffering from the disease of alcoholism?
Wouldn’t the medical field, the government, national defense, etc. being coming after you to examine this superpower you have, wouldn’t they want to take a close look at your ability to give another human being the disease of alcoholism?
I hope you stick around and come to learn and accept that NO you did not cause her disease.