Woke up
I have spent 10+ years in a $100K+/yr job walking an incredibly fine line. Last year my A type personality drove me to quit my job. (side note - I am Agnostic)
Lots of free time and banked cash drove the coke hobby into a major addiction. In the last year I have dated 5 girls (that I really didnt care that much for and blow $60K on powder). Free time and available cash affoards a crazy lifestyle.
Yesterday I woke up and had breakfast with my Dad. As well as I thought I was hiding everything, the people that care we afraid for me and knew that I am on a downward spiral.
The embarrisment of dissapointing the important people in my life is such a great motivation. Hopefully I can leverage that to kick my own ass. there has to be so much more to this life than a buzz. All of us users and just cowards hiding from life. Hopefully today I am going to step up and reclaim the important things.
Cheers All