Margo, How on earth could you see it in your house and not do it. Wow that takes amazing will power. Do you think it matters which meetings I go to at this point na or aa? Well I used last night after promising never again on monday. Went three days and then I just couldn't kick the craving last night. I was pacing around until then starting dialing the numbers just to see if I could get it if I wanted to and found it and just gave in. Still havn't sleep been up all day having anxiety attacks and feeling like ****. Physically and emotionally. The sad thing is I am still craving it. I have errased my connections numbers again and again then always have some way of finding them. I am so down. I went to detox for alcohol and was there with other drug users so I heard everything they had to say. Don't see the point of doing it again. Not sure what to do