New here - scared, but resolved
Hi there,
My name is Jay, it’s a pleasure to meet you all. I’m five days sober today.
Looking back, I’ve probably recognized that I have a problem with alcohol for more than a decade. It’s gotten much worse over the last few years - a vicious cycle of worsening anxiety, and drinking to try to quell that anxiety (great plan, I know!). Last week, I hit what I think was my rock bottom. I won’t go into too many details now, but my actions hurt my family emotionally, and could have hurt them in much worse ways. I was so lucky.
I woke up the next day with what felt like unsurmountable shame and guilt. But at the same time, I woke up with a resolve that I’ve never felt before to stop this. I’ve been reading non-stop, learning how to put the tools in place that I need to for this journey. I’m going to my first meeting on Thursday.
This forum has already been amazingly valuable to me, and I hope to continue to seek support and guidance here. I know I’ll have hundreds of questions as I start to put one foot in front of the other towards recovery.
Pleased to meet you all. I look forward to getting to know you better.
Take care,
Jay