Hey joshlyman, hang in there. We can’t change the past but we can change our behaviors so we don’t make some of the same mistakes. I am 39 days sober and I’m beginning to stress about dealing with the mess I made in the past. I’m currently trying to work my way off “probation” at work because of my drinking. It sucks. It’s humiliating. But today, I won’t drink. They keep saying it’ll get easier and to stay in today - that’s what I try to do. Maybe it can help you too.