When I doubted my sobriety, I did relapse a couple times. This time around, I am very confident in my recovery, as I do not want to be the person I was while drinking, she was a self-absorbed drama queen, ick, not who I am.
So,
I know for sure 1 thing, I have TODAY and for TODAY I will not drink. I make a deal everyday, and it is that simple (for me).
I pray you are able to see the goodness sobriety has to offer
I hope you are able to experience the benefits of sobriety (this is not an instant gratification process, it takes time to heal)
After everything you have been through, when you have some time under your belt you are going to be able to help someone who was struggling just like yourself, and that is so much more rewarding!!!
Keep going back! I see you are working 90 meetings in 90 days. I pray you stick with it!
Blessings.
DC