Still Need Support After Death
Hi Everyone,
I hope that it's still okay that I'm posting here. I've been searching and searching for a grief forum but I haven't found one yet that I think would understand me as much as you guys do.
It's been 3 months and I'm still in that fog. I've lost a lot of people and I never felt like this before. My protective anger and resentment that I held onto for years is starting to wane a bit. Now, I'm just sad. We received the final autopsy. That man was totally healthy. There was no damage to his liver, his kidneys or his heart. The sole reason he is not here is that stupid &*#!ing bottle. There is no way I can fool myself into believing that something more important killed him. I still can't wrap myself around that.
Some of you know me from here. You know that I knew that he had a disease. You know I knew that it would kill him if he continued. But, now that I have proof, I'm like....what? Was that it?? Really??
I miss you guys and just wanted to hear from you all again.