Hi N
I have also tried many different meds over the years unsuccessfully!
My mental health seems to be running a self destructive program
Like a fail script.
I'm just realising this today as I'm looking up some of my replies from sober people on my threads.
They are helping me to slowly build into my mind s belief that I can recover.
I find going to doctors where I live to talk about my crazy head and my mental state is pretty much futile.
They don't get it.
I have to get it I have to get me
Learn to.live with me sober!
And I need others in my life through different channels to help me so I can learn to help myself and believe that I can turn this sick sad life around over time.
Maybe just maybe a lot of my disturbances and imbalances are being caused by my active addiction.
I mean sure I have a problem maintaining sobriety but I'll never over Come that sober problem if I continue to get wasted all the time.
How badly do we want to have a joyous sober fruitful existence?
I wish you all the best
With or without meds.
G