Originally Posted by
Hawkeye13 
As I said in your other thread,
I was also pretty angry and I really found
a short course of one-on-one therapy helpful to get that stuff out
and processed.
I'm not a group person, so the privacy and working with someone who understood addiction could be very helpful.
Exercise was also great in getting the negative energy out of my body and mind.
It does sound like you simply don't want to quit, or are at least conflicted.
How do you treat others, and yourself, when drinking?
I know I had gotten to be a pretty selfish jerk by the end.
Has your wife / family told you if you don't quit they will leave?
I know when my spouse said that I was pretty angry
but over time, I worked with it and realized what I was doing drinking
was the real dealbreaker.
It hasn't been said but implyed.
My behavior when drinking is good to very bad depending on the day.
Do i want to stop drinking yes. But i also want to keep drinking.
I hate the feeling like I'm not normal. Like everyone drinks right. So why can't i. I know I'm kidding myself. I only know how to drink one way. As much as i can as quickly as possible.
But still i wrestle with my head.
I've booked in to see a therapist this week who i worked with before i went to rehab who helped me make the decision to go.
Really appreciate everyone's comments.
Thanks