Rar
Thank you.
The detox centre I would go to is shut down.
The only other one I would go to is an hour and a half away and I can't drive myself for, oh how many reasons. lol excuses!
I am starting to fabricate a plan that may work. I do seriously require getting in touch with my old clinic though. I've done it before and made it work.
I am not climbing walls tonight. I am just limiting certain things. I hate the fact I am almost out of meds and how bad of a problem that is. When I was sober that happened, I was out for almost a week. I got very sick.
We will see what happens when the ex comes tomorrow and we talk. I know I go from looking totally wrecked to totally fine really quickly.
I don't frikken know. I know I won't tell him the whole truth. I want to. But yeah that whole addict thing. I was working on the honesty thing and sometimes it hurts people more than it helps me. So it's hard to gauge the lines and I just learned to shut up for a while.
Oh well.