This guy is a piece of crap. Nothing good about him. And you need to understand addicts lie and make stuff up ALL the time to manipulate, and hurt those that care for them. Don't believe this guy when he talks about how he loved his ex more. He's making that stuff up so he can hurt you emotionally. And it's worked. Cut this guy off completely, you do not deserve to be treated this way. It is damaging you! He has no respect for anybody no matter how good they may be to him. Do not beat yourself up over someone so cruel.