Wow fire, what a phenomenal update! This, in particular, is profound to me:
There are so many silver linings to grief. It removes fear like nothing I've ever experienced.
So simple, but so true.
I cannot believe it's been 2 years already for you, but it makes sense when I remember all those events that came tumbling together like that.... I know it was anything BUT easy. Yours is the type of story I think of when newbies ask about Success Stories here on the board - you are truly an inspiration!