I could be off-base, but I can relate to what Stewy is saying and perhaps some of you guys are being a bit harsh? Not for me to judge, just an opinionated observation. I was like Stewy a few times. I couldn't check myself in for a month - single parent, nobody to take care of elementary school kids for that long (their other parent deceased). I woke up every morning, ashamed and depressed, swearing I wanted to stop and today would be the day, and then by 5 pm I would cave. Every. Day. Twice I finally broke down, took a week off of work and detoxed. Relapsed both times within a year. I gave up and had a loooong pity party. If taking off work is not an option (and for some it's not), perhaps intensive outpatient treatment could be an option. Stewy, what have you tried so far?