I'll say too, That no one here "feels better about themselves" for your continued drinking,not even you. Daughter,nephew,family and people at work.. Can you honestly look at yourself in the mirror and say "If I went and got help to get/stay sober, these people's lives would be a mess! For those 30-60 days." How could you possibly mess up their lives by getting sober? That's some straight up nonsense! No I don't feel better about having to watch you continue to go through this..If anything it's the opposite. Imagine how your family and friends/coworkers feel. I don't even know you. Get help,man. It's impossible to get a "foothold" without taking a step.