Now, as alcoholics are very good at hiding, my current girlfriend has no idea of it
oh?
- I think she starts to get a hint that somethings is off.
- Asking why my hands are shaking, why I cant sleep.
-When she calls me, she often has caught me in time when my speech is very slurred etc.
-But not once she has been angry, JUST ASKING IF IM DRUNK.(did you lie about it or were you truthful?)
she works on a cruise ship and theres NEVER drunk people on a cruise ship.
yeah, i can be sarcastic- all in good measure and hope that may have helped you see your GF isnt dumb.
I dont want to attend AA meeting, since Im afraid it might spook my current one away, since attending one would make it plain obvious to her, that I have a problem.
she already senses you have a problem.not going to get help because it might spook HER yet the drinking is destroying YOU- think about that for a bit.
this all about YOU
however, what about her? she doesnt deserve to be in a relationship with a deceitful dishonest man. put yourself in her shoes and see how it feels.
then make a decision you want to stop drinking for good.
then make a decision you will do what ever is necessary to stop.