Wow that sounds like a lot of work,man! So, you're basically 'white knuckling it' for the two weeks she's home,unless you two are in a social setting and she has a beer to drink? Then you 'can have a few'.. That sounds like a nightmare to me and you already know what your 'honest' drinking does to a relationship.. 1st off; good for you to reach out for support. Sounds like you need some. I'd look into some local AA/recovery meetings to go to while she's away at work,instead of drinking,unless you want to be alone and drinking? Post here regularly..whatever.. History will and does repeat itself if we keep doing the same stuff..ya know?