Less,
For me...I am not too hard on myself.
I learned what we here have is an addiction.
The only way I got this clean was to first beg God for help, then suffer.
I suffered so hard, no meds. Sweats, wobbly, weak. Horrible.
There was/is physical and mental damage. It is deep.
It took months of off and on suffering. I still suffer sometimes.
But, now it is minor. The crave is there, but it is weak.
I don't drink anymore.
Get well.
Thanks.