I completely agree with Garrison and know exactly how you feel. I stopped drinking on July 17th, 2017 and spent my birthday in Mexico that October (alcohol-free). I won’t lie to you — it was hard especially because my husband and everyone else around me was drinking. I brought books to keep my mind busy and focused on how beautiful it was. In December my husband and I spent a month in Europe - somehow I remained to completely refrain again. I had a great time, but I thought about drinking every single day - especially when I saw people having wine and booze in the streets on New Year’s Eve in Zurich.
For me it just wasn’t worth it.
It scares the hell out of me that I will have go back to “day one.” Plus, I’m truly enraged about what alcohol has cost me (how it’s made me repeatedly humiliate myself) — but more importantly what it could cost me if I pick up again.
Use this place (SR) it really holds you accountable. Best of luck.