I don't think your drinking "escalated" as a result of this being on your subconscious. Our drinking just progresses over time if we are "so inclined". I too always looked for a "reason" that I drank as I did. I kept tackling the reasons one at a time till I was all out of reasons, but continued to drink horribly. Finally, I found the only reason I drank the way I did was that was the only way I could drink if I drank.
I am not saying that issues of the past do not need to be acknowledged to live more comfortably. But in my case at least, I drank the way I drank, because it was the only way for me. There were no issues that caused it, just biology.
