You may be finding it harder to find support for this breakup b/c it doesn't make any sense for you to mourn its end. After all, he treated you badly; why would you be sad that it's over? However, what we mourn in cases like this isn't the loss of the actual relationship. What we're mourning is the loss of the dream we had, of the life we hoped for, the love we longed for.
This reading helped me to understand what it
really was that I was mourning when I was struggling w/those feelings, and I hope you find some use in it too. There are 2 parts:
https://www.cottonwooddetucson.com/p...ner-112011.pdf https://www.cottonwooddetucson.com/p...ner-112011.pdf