What is don’t miss is...sucking in my breath and holding it in when kissing my kiddos coming home after school. Was too scared that there might be residual alcohol smell coming from lungs due to a miscalculation on how much more vodka I could drink and still metabolize it by 3:30 pm. How shameful and exhausting it was to try to manage my drinking.
NOW....I can hug/kiss and grab them and tickle and laugh with them right after school, all the while breathing in and out with abandon. How glorious and freeing.