I think there is a huge diff btw year 1 and year 2. In year 1 i basically did everything to help keep me away from alcohol, many of those months questioning my resolve and several nights feeling sorry for myself. I was certainly not in the clear so to speak. In year 2 I was able to concentrate more on finding my happiness again, learning to live alcohol free, and accepting life in all its good and bad.
Im now into year 3, and am finally strong enough to go to any event and actually enjoy myself. This year Im really hoping to find peace, as I still struggle with depression and anxiety (on medication), but drinking again is not even a thought anymore. Occasionally i have a vivid dream where I smoke and drink, and wake up horrified.. i feel this is God's way of offering glimpses of the future and getting do overs without the failure. Theyre a blessing really.
Note: Ive never been to AA. I use SR as my only resort and resolve for anything and everything. This place is my salvation.