Originally Posted by
Gottalife 
Did you ever get drunk when you had a good relationship going in the past?
Wow. That is a powerful thought. I did have a relationship with a girl who loved me deeply before. And she was like, hot hot, like she could be a model. I’m not bragging, to this day I still have no idea what she liked about me. It was like a fluke or something. But I would actually ditch her to go drink by myself sometimes. Often, actually.
I guess alcoholics will always come up with reasons to drink. I suppose I’m just trying to prep myself so when the trigger eventually comes by, I’ve already processed it, and it won’t just hit me like a train or something.