Originally Posted by asixstringnut

I didn’t make it 3 days. I now realize that I have no control over alcohol. I use to be a problem drinker but now I believe I am a full blown addict that cannot stop drinking. I tried rehab, I have tried AA, I have tried almost everything know to man but I keep coming back to the drink. I am not going to make pitiful excuses as to why I drank last night. I drink to try to blot out the pain of loneliness and feeling of being useless.
This is not how I envisioned my life to be but here I am. I just can’t seem to get a grip on quitting.
The song Helpless by CSN&Y is playing in the background on pandora as I write this. I give up. it has become such an embarrassment for me to even post on here anymore.

asixstringnut